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It was a couple of sweeps after the game.
After all of there losses and wins.
After all the pain was over.
But Karkat Vantas wasn't happy nor did anyone treat him like they should.
The thing is after the game ended everyone who died came back and as Karkat was hopeing for some sappy happy ending like in one of his romcons he was faced with the exact opposite.
They all blamed him.
"Look what you diid two u2" Sollux said with scars still on him bright as day.
"iT'S ALL YOUR FAULT, kARKAT" Even Tavros seamed to change when he was back and alive, And he blamed getting crippled and eventually killed on him for not being able to stop it.
"W3'R3 4LL BL4M1NG YOU" Even Trezei who was happy with Dave blamed her blindness on him and his poor leading skills that she said he had.
"D--> This is all your fault, filthy lowblood." Karkat didn't expect anything from him, Especially once he found out that he did nothing and let his Moirail die.
"This is all your glubin fault Karcrab" Even Feferi who was usually nice held a new found grudge against the cancer.
"Wwere blaming you for not keeping us alive, Keeping me from snaping" Eridan who Karkat acted and treated with at lease some kindness when no one else did, Even the stupid fishdweller turned his back on Karkat.
":33 < all of us."

Karkat clutched his glass of green sopor tightly starring down at it blankly," I tried my hardest.. Didn't I?.. Fuck." He cursed to himself feeling tears brim about his eyes that had now filled in with the disgusting mutant color red he used to hate so much.
"Its my fault all are dam lusus died.." His voices trailed off as he felt the sopor making his mind go numb,"Its.. damit.. Everything is my fault."
Karkat buried his face with his hands choking back a sob shaking slightly as rush of images from the game session flooded back, all the pain, the suffering, the horrible bodies and the scent of blood.
It made him want to vomit up everything and anything he had in his nutrition sack and at this moment he would give anything to die and be at peace with out the consistent reminder of how much he fucked up glaring at him in the eyes of everyone around him with the scars they all showed making another constant ever lasting reminder.

He heard the footsteps of his once friends walk away as the echoing sound of Nepetas voice saying all of us ringed in the bar that he was in.
He choked back tears once more as he felt a warm large and comforting hand rest on his shoulders.
"I'm NoT.."
Karkat flinched a little as he looked up at his moirail, the only one who didn't leave.. Or.. hasn't left yet.
"It's not your fault what happend.. You all up and tried your motherfuckin hardest. And they just don't realize it." Gamzee filled in Indigo eyes looked at Karkat with pity and sadness,"If its anyone's fault it should be mine. I killed someone of them but yet its like they don't mother fuckin understand and just want to blame you Karbro.."  He sat down next to Karkat and before the broken cancer could say a word the Capricorn held him in a hug.
And Karkat broke down.
Tears streamed down his face as he clutched onto Gamzee's shirt shaking violently as his red tears soaked up into his shirt, Gamzee didn't mind as he just rubbed the others back soothingly repeating the same words over and over calmly,"Its not your fault..."
A little short story based on this drawing -[link]
Hope you like ^^
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syrenestardusty Featured By Owner Jun 24, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
I love this
god i'm crying so much right now! :O(
xXxBrokenFrames15xXx Featured By Owner Nov 3, 2013
I remember reading this a while back, i had a few tears running down my face. 
I read this today, those few tears running down my face again.
I love this, so much...gah. I'll go get a tissue now. <3
carcinoSinner Featured By Owner Nov 5, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
Ohmygosh this is the first time someone has told me that they re-read my stuff ahh thank you so much for reading :)
I'll most likely re-do this and make it ten times better since this is so old and my writing has gotten hella better.
xXxBrokenFrames15xXx Featured By Owner Nov 6, 2013
Heh, you should inform me when you re-write it ^___^ I really like it.
I started to break down when Gamz said "it's not your fault what happened.." gah. Feels. I love it though <3
Mukoru-chan Featured By Owner Mar 25, 2013   General Artist
:iconheartbrokenplz: m-my feels
carcinoSinner Featured By Owner Mar 28, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
APHItaly Featured By Owner Feb 27, 2013  Student Digital Artist
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APHItaly Featured By Owner Feb 28, 2013  Student Digital Artist
*hugs back*
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